I know all my posts since I’ve passed my 4th dan shinsa have been more or less about how different it feels compared to the times that followed the other successful exams, but here I am with another such post.
I believe what I experience is both motivation and a bit more clarity coupled with a desire to become more active in the community — not online, but within my federation.
Though questions start coming in too. Different kind of questions.
There’s something that is changing in the sensei I meet during practice also, more pressure. A lot more. I like it. It forces me to go back and forth with what I think I know, what I think I can apply. How well I think I can apply it.
The questions that I have right now? They’re broad and they’re about situations that I can’t really manage, at different levels, such as how to apply a threat to the centre line and mind/deal with a strong opponent’s kensen at the same time?
Another one would be : am I doing jigeiko right? Is my almost monomaniacal idea of trying to stick to some basic principles ultimately flawed?
I’ve had several encounters with people with whom I did gokaku-geiko that were difficult to deal with (they are usually in the 2-3rd dan ballpark). In contrast, the “harder” 4-5 and up don’t create these kind of situations that frustrate me because they’ll just search for their ippon strikes and for me, receiving those is not a source of frustration, rather the contrary.
While most encounters are usually satisfying, those few instances where we don’t understand each other with people of more or less similar level are a bit disappointing.
So I need help with all of that. Still need to find answers to gain more effectiveness against 4-5 and up, while at the same time finding a way to deal with 2-3s who just seem not willing to engage full force.
I’ll have to see sensei soon.
He’ll put me on the right track.
These are really interesting times.

Belgium has this noticeable particularity of having a high concentration of K7s, at almost 4% of the total yudansha population. For a small federation like us it’s quite remarkable (12 out of 321)